Shit happens.

It is well known that riding my mountain bike is one of my favorite pastimes. I’ve been riding more in the past few months then ever, mostly as a stress reliever, but taking off a few more pounds doesn’t hurt any either. I almost exclusively ride alone, but I do ride in the evening with the kids on shorter excursions.

My son and I went on a ride this evening, after which, he wanted to practice his ‘tricks’. An 8-year old has limited ‘tricks’, as you can imagine, but his wheelies are getting better. I have told my son about my BMX days as a child, and to be honest, I was damn good. This is why he’s always asking me to show him some tricks of my own. Against my better judgment, I attempted to impress myself by pulling off a ‘round-house’ (full 360 degree turnaround while keeping the momentum going forward). Although I was well versed in this move over 20 years ago, I knew better then to attempt a BMX freestyle trick on a mountain bike. The trick bent the shit out of the rear rim, deflecting it at lest 3 to 4 inches.


Looks like I’ll be taking the bike out of commission for some maintenance.

Just do it

In everyone’s life, there is a life changing and defining moment. Sometimes this moment is a good one, and sometimes it’s bad. Somehow, this doesn’t matter. The point is that during this moment, your life somehow changes forever. Some people only have one of these moments during their entire life. Others, though, have many.

During the last few weeks, or, quite honestly, the last few years, I have been living within the fallout of these moments, the last of witch has changed my life forever. As I undergo this rebuild of myself, I look back. I am now removing the filter that I have lived behind for so many years; the filter has somehow justified the actions of others. The reality of the past comes alive and I can see clearly now.

I will finally become the person inside that, through my facade, I presented to the world. I will finally be truly happy with who I am. I will finally put myself in a better place, both mentally and physically. My life will no longer be lived the way it has been for so many years. I am strong and am growing stronger by the minute. I will survive. For my kids, for myself, for my job, for all the kids I deal with, I will be the man!