Tuesday, May 30, 2006

To all in the league!

It’s not my fault. It’s not my fault. It’s not my fault. It’s not my fault. It’s not my fault. It’s not my fault. It’s not my fault. It’s not my fault. It’s not my fault. It’s not my fault. It’s not my fault. It’s not my fault. It’s not my fault. It’s not my fault. It’s not my fault. It’s not my fault. It’s not my fault. It’s not my fault. It’s not my fault. It’s not my fault. It’s not my fault. It’s not my fault. It’s not my fault. It’s not my fault. It’s not my fault. It’s not my fault. It’s not my fault. It’s not my fault. It’s not my fault. It’s not my fault. It’s not my fault. It’s not my fault. It’s not my fault. It’s not my fault. It’s not my fault.

STOP CALLING!

Saturday, May 27, 2006

We miss you.

This video is dedicated to my father-in-law, who passed away about a year and a half ago. Considering we’re heading up to the cabin this weekend, he’ll be watching us enjoy the activities that he never missed.

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

Hang it up!!!

There she was, looking up at the dark sky. She had no idea where she was or how she had gotten there, at least for a moment. Then she was cold inside, even though it was in the dead of summer. Loud noises were almost deafening at times, like someone was banging on a gong, she thought to herself. She laughed silently to herself about why she was cold in the middle of June. In reality, the concrete slab she had fallen on just a few minutes ago, out behind the old concessions stand building was drawing the heat out of her body, as the rain poured down like God had opened up the skies.

As she sat up, she looked at the trees. She looked to her left, then to her right. Everything was just a blur to her. Although images of buildings and trees were on her mind, like she had been there before, she was lost. She truly had no idea where she was or how she had gotten here. She sat there, leaning against a large metal box.

Almost fifteen minutes went by as she sat there, trying to remember where she was. Everything seems all too familiar, like it was a place where she was meant to be on this day, yet she was very confused. Finally she found the energy to stand up. She placed her left hand on the now nearly flooded concrete, her right hand on the wall beside her, and made her way to her feet. Once upright, she looked around for a few minutes, trying to find her location. Although she was lost, she also felt very happy, and now warm inside. She felt like she could run a marathon. It was still raining, but the steady downpour had turned into a slight drizzle. The green grass was replaced with running water and mud, from the thunderstorm that she had just lived through. She looked down at the flowing stream of rainwater. In her peripheral vision, she noticed a needle sticking out of her arm. It was the very same needle that she had shot herself up with, just about an hour ago. All her memories from this evening came back to her in one swift, almost overwhelming second. She finally realized the she was at her kids’ baseball game. The very game that she had dropped them off at, shortly before she shot herself up. She looked around to the metal box, it was a soda machine she was leaning against the whole time.

Without even thinking, she walked past the soda machine. There, sitting on the other side, were her two kids, leaning up against the old concession stand wall. The game had been rained out and everyone had left. The kids knew exactly where their mom was the whole time. They had seen it before many times. They had learned just to sit and wait until mom had ‘snapped out of it’.

Together, they walk home, like nothing had ever happened. The two boys trail behind the mom, looking up at the new sun filled sky, as mom talks on her cell phone.




If this story sickens you, even just a little, then I beg you to get involved in your community. Please, I beg you to make a difference in our future. If you would like to expand your positive effect on the world, then please read Less People, Less Idiots

Sunday, May 21, 2006

Busy takes a sick day, or two…

Everyone was informed that we were not going to be available this weekend for anything short of a disaster. Saturday morning it started. The cell phones were turned off. We started off a bit late, as usual. But, nun the less, our mini vacation had begun.

Many people have said that Sunbury is about 20 to 30 years behind the times. If this is true than for every westward mile you travel from here, you go back one year in time.



We have a cabin along Penns Creek Union County. The location is so remote that cell phones are useless, yet there is a community along the creek. Waving hello to each other as you drive up the dirt road that splits cabins from the creek.

Although this trip to our cabin would be the first for the year, our purpose there was simply to drop off my son with his Grandmother for an overnight stay. My wife and I had other plans. Our 10th anniversary was this past Thursday. Although the day itself was spent at work, then on the fields dragging, then answering questions, this weekend was ours.

So we headed further west, and yes, further back in time. Our destination was State College, Center County, home of the Penn State Nittany Lions. As far a College Football goes, I hate Penn State, yet, the new Penn State Behrend’s baseball and softball complex is awesome!

Enough talk, let’s get to the pictures, all titled the same: Hey Look…






Hey look, there's the new field!


Hey look, cool place to eat!



Hey look! I like the name of the soccer field!


Hey look, more blaa, blaa, blaa!


Hey look, the one cave I haven't seen!



Hey look! More to come!!!



I’m exhausted and heading to bed. Another long week is ahead. Once I get the chance, and if I recall, I’ll tell the story of the Indian Cavern! Later!!!

Friday, May 19, 2006

Yea, I know we need the rain!!! Ugh!!

My cell phone started ringing at its usual time, about 2PM. Once I actually got into the city and onto the ball fields, I made the return calls. I worked my ass off yesterday to make two games happen, on my anniversary to boot! It was work, drive, calls, shovel, plow, drag, drag, drag, shower and a fine dinner, all in what seemed to be one shift, four hour motion.

Today’s rain proved to be too much though. Although a fellow coach that had off work drug the fields for me today several times, the field that our team was scheduled to play on was ‘FUBAR’!

Taking this evening off, I snapped a few photos of my son doing his absolute favorite thing in the world, playing with little creatures, in this case, two caterpillars. Unlike my daughter, his is about the outdoorsiest kid you’ll ever meet.





Monday, May 15, 2006

Kill the weed at the root... PLEASE...

Today was a total rainout, all divisions included. All five fields looked like a mud pit. Canceling today’s games gave me some time to work on other items. I actually cooked a dinner this evening, instead of having some quick, slapped together meal like sandwiches, or samishes, as it’s known in my household. Plus, I actually got all of the dishes washed, another daily item that has fell to the way side during baseball season.

A fellow concerned parent, for lack of a better term, who had decided to step down from his league commissioner (commissioner of all baseball) position, has nominated myself for the position. After a bit of banging heads around over the phone, I am the unofficial fill-in until the next board meeting. Yet again, I wonder why parents choose to sit on the benches and watch their child become a better human.

Considering everything going on in the messed up world we live in today, I give you this piece. Yet another piece written by you know who…



Tool: Right in Two.


Angels on the sideline,
Puzzled and amused.
Why did Father give these humans free will?
Now they’re all confused.

Don’t these talking monkeys know that Eden has enough to go around?
Plenty in this holy garden?
Silly monkeys,
Where there's One you're bound to divide it Right in Two

Angels on the sideline,
Baffled and confused.
Father blessed them all with reason.
This is what they choose.
Monkey killing monkey killing monkey over pieces of the ground.

Silly monkeys,
Give them thumbs, they forge a blade, and where theres One they're bound to divide it,
Right in two.
Right in two.

Monkey killing monkey killing monkey over pieces of the ground.
Silly monkeys,
Give them thumbs, they make a club and beat their brother down.
How they survive so misguided is a mystery.
Repugnant is a creature who would squander the ability
To live tonight in heaven,
Conscious of his fleeting time here.

Cut it all right in two.
Cut it all right in two.
Cut it all right in two.
Cut it all right in two.

Fight over the clouds, over wind, over sky.
Fight over life, over blood, over air.
Fight over love, over sun, over another.
Fight over.. *

Angels on the sideline again
Been so long, with patience and reason
Angels on the sideline again
Wondering where this tug of war will end

Cut it all right in two
Cut it all right in two
Cut it all right in two
Right in two



Please be the ones that fight agents the average. please

Friday, May 12, 2006

Reflection…maybe...I forget...

This evening, as I worked at the concession stand burning hot dogs, hamburgers and porogies, it hit me. Our league has over 400 kids this year. Grade school math and a little assumption makes for about 800 parents. I made a statement during the last board meeting stating the obvious. Our entire league is built on parents. Our league president is a Grandparent to a child within the league. The VP, doubling as my wife at times, is a parent. All of the executive board members are parents. The list leads on and on, from the board of directors, to the team moms, all parents.

I am also a parent. My son is in the league. I want to help in every way I can, for the kids. Now, let’s calculate more of those basic math skills. There are only 19 administrative positions within our league. I hold 3 of them. Why is this?

Ok, let’s tally it all up… I currently have the following titles within the league: Tee-Ball Commissioner, Co-Coach Pitch Commissioner, General Board Member, Coach, Safety Officer and now, until the next board meeting, Commissioner of the League. I am holding 6 titles, yet we have 800 parents.

And to think, many years ago, all I wanted was to watch my son play a sport. My cell phone bill for this month was almost $200.00. What the fuck are all these other parents doing? I’ll tell you, dropping their kids off to a game or practice and leaving. Some parents can’t even make it back in time for end of the game, leaving the coaches and others to baby-sit them until they return. I think I put a stop on at least one set of parents after I went off on them, big time!

My personal life, if not my life in general, has been put on hold this year.

Saturday, May 06, 2006

Untill I get time





Thursday, May 04, 2006

Ah yes, another fine day in this beautiful country! Us Americans take SOOOO much for granted! Up until this year, the operation of our baseball league’s concession stand had always been subbed out. This year, looking for more ways to save money, the board had decided to try running it ourselves. After weeks of blood, sweat and tears, mostly by others, the wife included, the roach coach opened its doors this evening. Issues on the fields kept me from the being there as much as I had hoped. Being a board member and safety officer and coach and parent and whatever else keeps my head in a bit of a fog at times. Hell week is long gone. Hell day is this Saturday, opening day. Every kid on every team will touch a ball. Over 400 kids touching said ball makes for a long day.

On another level, this after noon, I was offered a job with a certain major oil company, in no uncertain terms, while the president of our company stood beside me. I think I used the best words for the situation. The money looks very appetizing, but yet somehow, the kids mean more. I hope I’m not making a mistake.

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

My average evening, hour by hour…

This evening I was on the fields to give out some equipment needed for Saturday’s opening day. Both kids were with me and I was only planning to be on the fields for about a half out or so, just to hand out the game balls and the like. It was during this time that I noticed something. No matter what field I walk to, for whatever reason, someone calls my name, calling me over to them for a question or concern.

As I type this, I have had seven phone calls, all baseball related. The latest one was from the President of the league, busting my ass just a little as he sits at the bar enjoying some beverages. I informed him that I have my own right in from of me. I’m not sure if it’s the phone calls or the beverage that makes the editing of my posts so horrible. Sooner of later, I will find the time to review what I type into this stupid blog thingie.

At one point this evening, I had my landline phone on the desk, my cell phone on the desk and my wife’s cell phone at my ear, all with baseball calls. And yea, all while I am typing this crap. I started this stupid update over two hours ago.

Another long day at work tomorrow. So far tally is 12 inspectors and or engineers. The airlines should have a good profit this week. I can’t wait until that invoice is written.

Monday, May 01, 2006

Why?

Ah issues, so many issues. Today’s practice turned up a few. Why are people so unwilling to speak to their peers concerning issues within the league? What the hell? These people will sit on the bleachers and talk about other parents and kids, like there very own little soap opera, yet when it comes to speaking to the coach about concerns with there own child, they go behind the scenes and arbitrarily move the kid. Spineless bastards! I am just a volunteer coach. Although I am on the board of directors, and safety officer for the organization, when you boil it down, I am just another parent. Give me a break, when I’m on the fields, I’m down on my knees half the time, reaching out to the kids! How do I become so superior of a person that parents fear me?

To Mr. Dorman… I know I promised to involve your child into my baseball team, and I will. Please understand that I, very literally, have not had the chance to make the arrangements. During the week, I have been on the fields every day. I barely have enough time to throw a sandwich at the kids and take a shower. Plus, I have been leading up this fucking project at work, as I always do, that has been keeping me away from home. I may be a professional and all, but while the Japanese where there today, inspecting all of the instrumentation, I requested Godzilla to be played on our local radio station.

So here is the long and the short of things. My marriage basically fucked, yet not, maybe. I am now qualified as Project Engineer. (been a long time coming) I was offered a job… Conflict of interest to say the least. My team is doing well, but a little more parent support would be nice. Every time I look at my cell phone there is another call from some parent, or coach, or kid, or commissioner.

It feels kind of strange to be so involved in something you love, yet feel so empty.